Change is something...

Stressed and depressed would be an understatement of how I feel right now. Relationship and companionship is not even a major part of my feelings right now and I'm still about to explode. I think I need someone to talk too otherwise I might just snap. I'm an addict, sick to the utmost, and just utterly feeling at the end of my rope once again. Let's see if I can get pass all this, but this time with a little help.

Peeta Mellark signing out hopefully not for the last time....

Hmmmm Hey there you beautiful blog.

So as I lay here wondering is it still cool that I think about and have feelings for my ex Missy? I'm slowly climbing out of a dump right now in my life but I'm not mad I'm just kinda missing companionship. Normally I would still be with my ex but she's a whole different story.

So last year around December I found out the "awesome" person I was with decided it would be cool to stomp all over my feelings and trust for her by cheating on me. This is the first time that I got cheated on and it was probably one of the worst feelings because of the fact that I out so much into the relationship. I was there through all her up and downs with her fam, her moving away and coming back, her living in different shelters, finding out the child wasn't mine, and more. All I got in return was disrespect and pain. Ugh still mad at myself for feeling anything towards her still but I do LOVE her daughter. I miss that little girl to this day. Anyway just wanted to get some of that off my chest.

Anyways that's Peeta SF Mellark signing out.....