Damn.....

I find myself the enemy of my own self at the moment. Ugh I can't take it but I still love Katniss and it's really driving me up a wall at this moment. I don't know what to do my emotions is all sporadic and all over the place and I just can't help but want it to end. I've talked to my father about 4 times already for the day just trying to figure out what to do and what's next in my life. I think I just need to be alone for a period in my life and this job is probably going to get me there.

I can't believe how much I connected to someone enough that there action of 3-4 months past now can still have such an effect on me. GOD help me because I surely can't seem to help myself. I truly don't want to revert back to my old ways to deal with this situation. If need be I might have to cut Katniss out of my life completely if I can't deal with it. I really don't want to because I truly love the girl, but that's the reason I'm still feeling things when it comes to her because I still generally and truly loved her. I gave someone other than myself a complete trust of my life and it really backfired/didn't work out. Seriously though Peeta signing out until next time :P :-( V_\\\.